Notes on my psyche during probably the most painful period of my life.read more
I’ve been feeling nauseas, every meal I eat I risk throwing it up. Am coughing. I feel depressed. Some days I feel like I’m not strong enough to get back to where I was. Usually days we set a new plan I feel good. At night I’m completely restless, I try to sleep but my mind can’t stop running. I try reading, listening to calming music, and I still only get an hour of sleep. It’s been days since I had more than 2-3 hours of solid sleep. I’m very impatient, I want to see a constant slope upward. Every day I question the plan and set a new course. The issue is I can’t seem to stick to anything long enough. I just want to get back to where I was before. If I force myself to work, I feel fine. No pain, I just focus on work because that’s all I can focus on. At the moment: what I think I want is Wellbutrin and something to help me sleep. Then I’ll also see a psychiatrist. But I’m terrified that in 2 days I’ll want to go off of it because I’ll think whatever I’m feeling, like nausea, is due to the new medicine. Last time I was on Wellbutrin I was taking 150mg. What should I take for the nausea? Tums? How do I get myself to be able to eat enough? I was taking Miralax (like 4 doses per day) and I also started Nexapro at the same time. I started vomiting and feeling very nauseous for 10 hours a day. I decided to stop both because of the nausea and vomiting, which one was more likely causing it?