My Proposed Reasons Why I Was Anxious

• Not having something to look forward to
• Living in NY
• Not having a social support group at work or otherwise
• Feeling like I have to carry the entire company on my back
• Tara’s law school decision
• Stress about the Ativan
• Hiring new people to the company
• Working on a completely new product (felt very grim about it)
• People moving out of New York
• Feeling can’t get out of bed
• Was feeling great for the past like 7 days and then Sunday and Monday hit and I’m bad.
• How much of this is me just thinking I’m depressed and how much is actually because I am? The less I obsess over my depression and how I’m going to get better, the better I feel.
• My mind thinks about things far in the future:
  • My parents dying
  • Having to get my own health insurance once I'm 25 and how Coursicle is going to pay for it, etc.
• Obsessions
  • 30,000 photos
  • Fully researching everything
  • Take forever to order anything at restaurant,
  • 100% or nothing. Apartment fully clean, have to finish entire movie, have to fully research purchase or feature before pushing.

I feel like my anxiety is more under control, but I do have depressed mornings which I need to exercise to turn around.