My second anxiety episode began when my friend of 8 years said he still didn't want to rekindle things after he cut me out of his life a year prior.

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 I probably wouldn’t have seen him in person again at all, the times we lived near/he was in NC was over anyway. That was a big natural ender to the friendship  anyway. 
 He is being unreasonable and I should be angry about that.